About five months back to be precise, in May this year I took a decision, a decision that was biased by others opinion. I decided to leave my 4.5 months old kid back home with my parents and travel abroad for work. I had an assignment for about 8 weeks in US and then later in Switzerland for about an year. My family was to join me in 6 weeks once I landed in Swiss.
I completed my assignment in US and flew back to my country for 15 days and then flew to Switzerland. Its been exactly 3 months since I landed here and till date my family is not with me and chances are that they will not be with me at least till early next year.
At this stage I have the choice to either return and be with my family or stay here and give it another shot. Wait another 2 months and then things could work out or just decide now and do what I want.
Life is not easy and complicated, they say. I believed that life is not complicated, we make it so. And I made it so, so now how do I uncomplicate it. I have performed so many actions which has entangled it to this extent. Now how do I remove the knots?
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Who am I?
Who am I? That's a question many people ask themselves. I know who am I. I am an individual who is seeking an identity. Just when I feel that I have identified my identity, I have evolved and I am asking again who am I?
So the question who am I will not have a answer till the last breath when finally I would have caught up with my evolving self and triumphed. Then I can conclude who was I. Till then the answer would be who I was till the moment gone by.
So let the question who am I remain. For the moment I am a daughter, sister, wife, daughter-in-law and mother. Mother... thats one role that I am yet to play. I made certain decisions in life that did not allow me to play the role of a mother to the fullest.
Miles apart from my loved ones all alone, what am I doing? I am paying the price for greed. Greed to be responsible for our own lives. Paying the price for independence. But its not me alone whos paying the price there are others whos paying too.
So the question who am I will not have a answer till the last breath when finally I would have caught up with my evolving self and triumphed. Then I can conclude who was I. Till then the answer would be who I was till the moment gone by.
So let the question who am I remain. For the moment I am a daughter, sister, wife, daughter-in-law and mother. Mother... thats one role that I am yet to play. I made certain decisions in life that did not allow me to play the role of a mother to the fullest.
Miles apart from my loved ones all alone, what am I doing? I am paying the price for greed. Greed to be responsible for our own lives. Paying the price for independence. But its not me alone whos paying the price there are others whos paying too.
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